It has been quite a week for me. Nothing particularly earth shattering in the grand scheme of things but very satisfying for me in my world. In this part of the world it is the week after spring break. So I have 5 hours a day to decide how I want or need to spend my time. I have recently been thinking about how the current go to excuse is ‘I’m too busy’. While of course it is true that we are all busy – we are all only busy in our own way. That in itself gives us a relative freedom as far as what our busy is. In my experience being busy is often a pseudonym for ‘I don’t want to’. I can hear your gasp of indignation. I must stick to my guns on this one though. I am a fan of the ‘I don’t want to’ excuse as I think we as a society spend the majority of our time pleasing others and by default neglecting ourselves. This being said, balance is an ever hovering goal. There also exists a large demographic that is exclusively devoted to the me-ism culture. BALANCE.
This week I decided to sort out my house aka possessions as I see them. I thought, why is this ever present desire to stream line still so elusively out of reach? Because sometimes I’m just going through the motions. Imagine that, me, going through the motions. Ha! I laugh at the thought! (sarky)
Sometimes you just have to really have a talk with yourself (inside voice) and decide honestly if you mean it or not.
Of course we all want to downsize, organize, label, donate etc. You know what? NOT. Let’s be real here, our actions speak louder than our thoughts. The gaping chasm between intention and execution is still just that – a chasm. I do not say this as judge and jury but as peer and fellow striver.
This week I made a list of what I wanted to accomplish in a perfect world. Then, what I tried to be very strict about how I allowed my time to be used. Notice, how I allowed my time to be used. Not how I wanted to use my time. Now, this was a challenge but I talked myself through it. Success. Not 100% and not immediately but surely a success. Donated to families in need charity, binned a lot of superfluous items, sorted and put away other vagrant objects and donated books to the school as well as the diabetes clothing drive. Actually, a lot of determined effort but such a feeling of buoyancy that regret has dissipated into oblivion.
This week I decided to sort out my house aka possessions as I see them. I thought, why is this ever present desire to stream line still so elusively out of reach? Because sometimes I’m just going through the motions. Imagine that, me, going through the motions. Ha! I laugh at the thought! (sarky)
Sometimes you just have to really have a talk with yourself (inside voice) and decide honestly if you mean it or not.
Of course we all want to downsize, organize, label, donate etc. You know what? NOT. Let’s be real here, our actions speak louder than our thoughts. The gaping chasm between intention and execution is still just that – a chasm. I do not say this as judge and jury but as peer and fellow striver.
This week I made a list of what I wanted to accomplish in a perfect world. Then, what I tried to be very strict about how I allowed my time to be used. Notice, how I allowed my time to be used. Not how I wanted to use my time. Now, this was a challenge but I talked myself through it. Success. Not 100% and not immediately but surely a success. Donated to families in need charity, binned a lot of superfluous items, sorted and put away other vagrant objects and donated books to the school as well as the diabetes clothing drive. Actually, a lot of determined effort but such a feeling of buoyancy that regret has dissipated into oblivion.
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